Hammie Rozz is a hamster, she's a roborovski to be exact. I got her about a year ago from a pet shop in Taman Tun Dr Ismail. It was quite a mixed feeling sort of day because my friend Mimie, who drove me to the pet shop and drove Hammie and me back to the office, lost her NokiaN73. Her bag was slightly open and someone must have conveniently slipped his/her hand into Mimie's handbag and took off with her handphone. I remember the sadness, the tears, my never ending feeling of guilt mixed up with the happiness of having this new addition in my life, all 1 1/2 inch of grey fur.
Hammie circa mid 2008...all fluffy and fat! It was hard to take her photo, with her squirming and Baby's yellow eyes on both of us, glinting away.
Then we moved to the new house in Puncak Alam and Honeyz joined the family. The house is still "kelam kabut" so Hammie's cage was put on the floor. I would sometimes see Honeyz and Darling playing with Hammie. Sometimes Honeyz would "kacau" Hammie and there would be this funny sight where one would be running around inside the cage and a crazy kitten running around the cage. When he is not busy bullying Honeyz, Darling would be sticking his nose into the cage...all three seem to enjoy each other's company. But I noticed that Hammie have been having long naps and sometimes it's hard to wake her up...
About two weeks ago, we came back to the house, after a downpour, and discovered that Hammie's cage was overtuned and Hammie missing....Her cage was put outside as the house is too warm, at least outside she can benefit from the breeze. My husband finally found her, all soaking wet and pathethically tring to get out of the drain. Thank God the water in the drain was not deep. I cleaned her, wrapped her in a clean towel and hugged her until she was dry and warm and I remembered those tiny black eyes just looking and looking at me. I did not know then.....
She was kept in the house for a few days. Then she was put outside again as the weather was too warm and the house akin to a furnace (we don't have air conditioning yet). Everything seemed alright.Last Saturday, 18th April, 2009, my husband and I arrived home at 1.20 a.m. He was on night shift. As usual, we would allow those three, Baby, Darling and Honeyz to have a run around for an hour or so, no matter what time we arrive home as they have been in their cages all day. Then my hubby noticed that Hammie was not moving, we tapped the side of her cage, still no movement, opened the door...no movement...I touched her...warm but so, so still...very still. My beautiful Hammie slept...forever.
Hammie is gone. I don't have the strength to clean her cage yet...let it be. My husband said we can get another hamster but I told him not yet. I know life goes on and some may think me "peculiar" for waxing lyrical about a member of the mouse family...but love is universal, it is not defined by clolour, creed, religion or species. It transcends all boundaries and I love this little creature created by Allah and I miss her...tears are still falling for you Hammie and even if it stops physically, it will continue in my heart...
I know you are in heaven, and I would like to believe that you are with Tarique Al-Awal (my beautiful morning star), keeping each other company...maybe if I am good enough for heaven... we will meet again.
Love always from Mama, Papa, Baby, Darling and Honeyz...